Letters to Mom #1
8 years since I have touched this blog. But I need this space now to express my grief. I don't care if anyone ever reads this. It is for me. Dear Momma, 22 days. That is how long it has been since you breathed your last breath. 22 days. 3 weeks and 1 day. Not a long time but forever ago as well. Vince and I were there. I hope you knew we were there and that you weren't alone. We didn't realize what was happening in the moment. Everything just happened so fast. And it was so quiet. We sat with you for awhile after and waited for Daddy to come. I didn't want to leave that room because I knew how final it would be. So much has happened since then. So much I have wanted to tell you. So many times I wanted to pick up the phone and call. But I can't. You won't answer. I won't ever hear your voice again. People tell me that you know what is going on. That you can see it as it happens. I hope so but I need to make sure you know. Here is what has happened sin