Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Random Thoughts and Observations

  • I am extremely easily annoyed these days.  It doesn't take much to get under my skin which makes me an unpleasant person to be around.  Knowing this, I've been keeping to myself a lot so I don't just completely go off on someone.
  • I am also more emotional.  I almost cried in a meeting this week when one of the PMs welcomed me back to the office and commented that I looked thrilled to be there.  The comment didn't bother me because it was true.  It just re-emphasized how much I want to be home with Jackson.  And then I did it again the next day driving to work just because I really didn't want to go.
  • The daycare situation is really stressing me out.  We have just over 2 weeks to find someone to watch Jackson while Chris and I are at work since our perfect in-home daycare fell through last week.  I am really not happy about this.  I never wanted to put my kids in daycare but I have no other options.  Nor do I have any idea how we are going to pay for this.
  • My feet still don't look like my feet.  I guess I got used to how they looked swollen and puffy.  Now they look so skinny and long and like they belong on someone else's body.
  • I've lost all my pregnancy weight plus about 10 pounds which should be great but it isn't.  While my old clothes fit, they aren't comfortable because I am flabby and everything has shifted so nothing fits right.
  • I have one pair of jeans out of about 5 that fit me properly.  So I decided to order a couple of more pairs of the same style.  Wouldn't you know, Lee no longer makes the style I like so I can't find any to purchase.
  • Is it ever going to cool off in Austin, Texas?  The first day of fall was last week and we celebrated by having a high of 104 on Monday.  We are well over 80 days of triple digit temperatures for the year.  I am ready for it to drop below 90 for a few days and to get some rain.
  • Explain to me how 1 gas station out of 5 in a half mile radius can charge $0.50 more than all the others and still have business.  Two of the stations were $3.27 and 2 were $3.29 but the last one was $3.71.  How does that happen?
  • Somehow I have become a mommy blogger.  That wasn't intentional but, since I write about myself and my life, I guess it was bound to happen when I got pregnant.  
  • I still hurt quite a bit more than I expected to at this point.  I pretty much always feel a slight throb around my incision and, at least once a day, I will get a sharp, stabbing pain in that general area.  It's been 2 months.  Is this normal?
  •  I am attending The Bathering in a few weeks and I am excited and terrified at the same time.  A lot of the bloggers attending have "known" each other for ages and I am so of the new kid on the block.  And, yes, I am that person who wants to be cool and well liked but I know in reality that I am not cool so all my anxiety is coming out over this one.  It is being held here in Austin so that is great but I am also afraid of missing out on a lot of the fun because I won't be staying in the hotel with the other ladies.
  • I think I have rambled just about as much as I can ramble on one post for today.  Just had to pass on some of the thoughts floating around in my head.


HereWeGoAJen said...

Yeah, the first Blatherings that I couldn't go to, I knew practically everyone. This one? I know barely anyone. So, want to be friends with me?

Gina said...

On the irritability and emotions, it takes a LONG time for your hormones to level back out. A LONG time.

As far as your c-section still hurting, none of mine have still had pain after 6 weeks or so. But everybody's different. I still have some numbness, but I have been cut in the same place 3 times, so that's to be expected.

MavsMom said...

Jen - Of course I will be your friend at the Blathering. I sort of know Sarah Lena Brown. We have several mutual friends in real life but have never actually met.

Gina - I am glad to know that my crazy emotions are normal. That makes me feel better.

Curly Girl Confessions said...

I don't have a baby nor am I preggers, but I can only imagine this has something to do with hormones. AND- pregnant, not pregnant or with baby at home...this work place is stressful, sad some days and the men here don't know when to keep their mouths shut. ;)

Erica said...

Hang in there. It gets better for sure. See you at the Blathering.

Elizabeth said...

I'll be at the Blathering, but staying at a different hotel with my husband and 9 month old--I have the same concern about missing out on the fun!

As for the section pain, I think that's normal. I had one in January, and I definitely still have twinges and pull-y feelings even now. I'm starting to think it may be adhesions?

Hillary said...

I only know a couple people at The Blathering. I think most of us are in the same boat.

Erica said...

I'm sort of glad to not be the only one having to go home at night during Blathering weekend instead of to a party-time fun place. We will still have fun! Less sleep, but just as much fun!