Just Say Julie

 Hi Momma, Yesterday was one month since we lost you. I cried in church. I am not really sure why except that I needed to be there. That was the first time I had cried in several days. The tears are slowing down a bit at least. Unfortunately, Todd's wife, Melissa, passed yesterday.  Daddy is planning to go to Birmingham for the funeral. I am glad he can make it since Todd, Earl, and Todd's son, Thomas, came for your funeral. It was nice to see them.  It has been too long. I wish we were able to spend more time together as a family. I also wanted to tell you that I am sorry we didn't tell you about Mr. Bill.  We didn't want to upset you with everything that you were dealing with.  I am sure Mr. Bill was there to escort you when you got to heaven. Daddy and I went to Mr. Bill's funeral the Saturday after you died. After we left the ceremony, we drove out to the cemetery to finalize the arrangements there. That was a tough day.  I am doing my best to stay busy...

 8 years since I have touched this blog.  But I need this space now to express my grief.  I don't care if anyone ever reads this.  It is for me. Dear Momma, 22 days. That is how long it has been since you breathed your last breath. 22 days. 3 weeks and 1 day. Not a long time but forever ago as well.  Vince and I were there. I hope you knew we were there and that you weren't alone. We didn't realize what was happening in the moment. Everything just happened so fast. And it was so quiet. We sat with you for awhile after and waited for Daddy to come. I didn't want to leave that room because I knew how final it would be. So much has happened since then.  So much I have wanted to tell you.  So many times I wanted to pick up the phone and call.  But I can't. You won't answer. I won't ever hear your voice again. People tell me that you know what is going on. That you can see it as it happens. I hope so but I need to make sure you know. Here is what has h...