Friday, March 23, 2012

A Good Day At Last

It's no secret to anyone that I have been in a bit of a funk for a while now.  I just seem to be in one of those places where life is getting me down.  Every time I turn around something has happened and all I've wanted is a little break.  Something good for a change.  I don't want to jinx us and say things are starting to turn around but I can say that the last couple of weeks have been an improvement over the first 2 months of this year.

Yesterday, I was in a really good mood.  I can't say that there was in particular reason but I was happy for the first time in what seemed like ages.  My company was having a party at the end of the day to celebrate a major contract award and that just seemed to be making the whole day go well.  Everybody was in a good mood at work and we all seemed genuinely happy to be there.  For the first time since I started there nearly 3 years ago, they brought in tacos, margaritas, and beer for everyone to enjoy.  I don't think I saw a single person without a smile while they were carrying their food and drinks around the break room.  It was just so festive and nice to have some good news instead of the struggling we've done over the last couple of years.  I really do think the good news at work has improved my mood.  I should mention that I will be working on this project so it's also a really good thing for me career wise.

But beyond that I came to a realization earlier this week.  I have been trying to provide guidance to a friend who has been going through some struggles in her marriage.  Her situation is very similar to the one I found myself in before my divorce.  Through this I figured out that while I may not always be happy with situations life throws at us, I am overall happy being with Chris.  That is not something I could say in my first marriage.  Financially I was more secure and life was easier (no kids and such) the first time around but I was married to someone whom I didn't want to spend my time with.  I think one of the biggest frustrations I have now is that Chris and I don't get the time together that we desperately want.  But he can make me laugh over the stupidest, silliest things and that is something I wouldn't trade for all the money in the word.


Anonymous said...

Hooray for having a slightly better week. Any improvement is something, right? Hope you have a fabulous weekend!

CraftyHope said...

I'm so glad that you're feeling like things are slightly more optimistic. I really hope that continues!

Andrea said...

Sounds like things could be looking up a bit. :) Maybe as Chris gets more tenure in his job, the time together thing will become easier. In the mean time, I hope you can continue to find moments together that get you through. :)

aubieangel said...

So glad you're happy in your marriage. I get frustrated when I don't get enough time with my husband too! I hope things really are looking up for you. You and yours remain in my thoughts and prayers :)