Just Say Julie

So I feel like someone has hit the fast forward button on my life recently. Two months ago I had just returned from Hawaii and now I am staring down the barrel of my impending divorce. While I have come to terms with the divorce and the actions that led to the divorce, I am still a little overwhelmed at what life has in store for me. I started a new job two weeks ago which was a very good thing for me because it was more money and got me away from a situation I needed to be out of. I fully intended to move to Austin next month for the new job. However, after reevaluating my financial situation, I determined it was best for me to sit tight in Killeen until I get an offer on my house. To be honest, the thought of moving on scares me a bit. And I am starting to reconsider whether or not I made the best decision taking the new job. I now understand what my friend, Karen, went through when her husband retired from the Army earlier this year. The Army becomes such a way of life that you fee...

It has been a stressful week already and it is only Tuesday. The packers came yesterday and packed Shawn’s stuff. Here I was in my house with three strange women telling them what was going and what was staying. And I just sat on the couch and wanted to cry. I can’t even explain how I felt. I just feel like I am being cheated out of the opportunity to be upset about all this. Everything is happening so fast. The divorce will be final in a few weeks. I start a new job next week. I even went on a date this past weekend. I am still trying to figure out how this became my life. Today was even worse. The movers came and loaded everything. Now my house is half empty. It was strange to open his closet and nothing be there. I am just trying to keep myself busy right now so I don’t stop long enough to process what is really going on. I went shopping after everyone left and bought new furniture for my house. Usually shopping makes me feel better but not today. I went to 4 diffe...

OK Gang…I know a lot of you have been worried about me recently and I wanted to pass a long a status update. Believe it or not, life is good for me right now. I am handling things a lot better than I thought I would. I was planning on staying in Killeen for a while but, as we know, the only constant is change. I have accepted a job in Austin doing government contracting accounting. It is basically the same job I am doing now only more money and better benefits. So I will be moving to Austin in the next few months once I can sell my house here. I am excited about the prospects in my future. So thank you for all your thoughts and prayers. They have been greatly appreciated.

Well, I know my last blog shocked many of you in blog land. Trust me it has been a shock for me too. All I can do now is pack up and drive on. I am amazed at how quickly this has all progressed. But I am trying to make the best of a bad situation. I have been trying to organize Shawn’s stuff into central locations in the house to make it easier when the movers come. I am ready for his stuff to be gone so I can redecorate the house. I know that sounds selfish but it is the one thing I have to look forward to right now. Well, I don’t have anything interesting to tell so that it’s for now.

Well, I have been fussed at because I haven’t been updating regularly and I do have a lot to tell. But, to be honest, I haven’t wanted to talk about what is going on in my life. That probably has to do with the fact that all I seem to be doing right now is talking about what is going on in my life. I could make a list of reasons I haven’t been posting recently like Mal did but I really only have one reason. My life is falling apart around me and I am doing everything I can to hold myself together. I guess the first thing to say is that I will have to change the name of my blog soon. In 60 days, I will no longer be an Army Wife. For that matter, I will no longer be a wife. Long story short, Shawn is moving back to Alabama for his next assignment and I am staying here in Texas. Once the shock of the whole thing wore off, I got really sad for about a week but now I think I am going to be OK. In many ways, this is the best thing for us and has been coming for a long time. Howeve...

I know it has been a few days since I have posted anything but that has been because I haven’t had anything to say. We have to attend a Hail & Farewell this evening. It kind of feels like a death march going to your own farewell when you don’t know what your next move is. Branch is still giving us the run around on Shawn’s next assignment. Every time he has talked to them we have been pushed back a week on getting a real answer. So it has now been two months and Shawn still doesn’t have a job. I am frustrated because I am staring a promotion in the face that is pretty much mine if I want it. However, I have to tell my boss that I might not be able to take it because I might have to move. The thought of moving is both scary and exciting. I am trying to look at it as an adventure for Shawn and I to go on but I don’t want to leave my friends and my job and have to start over again. I am just now adjusted to this place. I am not ready to pack up and do it over. But then the...

Shawn missed my birthday by 25 minutes. I arrived at the gym to pick him up at about 12:45 on Thursday morning. We finally got home an hour later. I was exhausted Thursday at work. However, I was excited because part of my birthday present was a trip to Fredericksburg for a little R & R for us. So we got the plans in place and headed out of town after my doctor’s appointment on Friday. It was nice to escape for a couple of days. Fredericksburg is a great little German community about 2 hours from here. We had no idea prior to moving here that there was such a strong German influence in Central Texas. It is actually quite interesting. Shawn did the husbandly duties of carrying all my bags while we shopped on Saturday. I think we both enjoyed the laziness of the weekend sleeping to nearly 9 each morning. I was ready to head back on Sunday since I missed Maverick very much. He has been having a hard time being boarded recently and was very happy to have Shawn home. I was...